想念的心

It has been a while, since a song can touch my heart. Re-starting the blog with a song to share.

光良 - 都是你
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lRZzmcR5nEg

谁 改变了我的世界
没有方向 没有日夜
我 看着天 这一刻在想你
是否会对我一样 思念
你曾说 我们有一个梦
等到那天 我们来实现
我望着天 在心中默默念
下一秒 你出现在眼前
想念的心 装满的都是你
我的钢琴 弹奏的都是你
我的日记 写满的都是你的名
才发现 又另一个黎明

你曾说 我们有一个梦
等到那天 我们来实现
我望着天 在心中默默念
下一秒 你出现在眼前
想念的心 装满的都是你
我的钢琴 弹奏的都是你
我的日记 写满的都是你的名
才发现 又另一个黎明
我的日记 写满的都是你的名
才发现 又是一个黎明
这是我 对你爱的累积

不说出的温柔

It's already 1am in the morning. Though tomorrow is an usual working day, I still decided to pen down what's deep in thought now. Especially after listening to this song:

范逸臣 - 不说出的温柔 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fpHJfTypdgw



你是否 忘记了
那时候的笑容
如果我已不在你心中

舍不得 为什么
你说过的以后
留下我能不能圆梦

那天空 云很多
看不见你的轮廓
只剩下 太多来不及说

不说出的温柔
让你离开我
我以为你都会懂

等着你
我 才发现难过

很难说有没有
想念过你的手
可能是 我不愿去触碰
不记得本来你
有没有擦口红
反正是 我已经错过

那天空 云很多
看不见你的轮廓
剩下 太多来不及说

想哭的冲动
开始在失去以后
才等着你的手
拥抱我的寂寞
该说的时候
早应该大声的说
那种认真的沉默
弄巧成拙

不说出的温柔
让你离开我
我以为你都会懂
想哭的冲动
开始在失去以后
已经擦干了泪
为何还有点痛
该说的时候
早应该大声的说
爱已经留下缺口
剩下沉默

不说出的温柔
让你离开我
去拥抱你要的梦
别担心我
我会好好过

J said "I always thought that you will be a prospective daughter-in-law that every parent would want." This sentence of his has been running through my mind for so long. Even though this was said months ago, while now, I'm thinking of it, again. No idea, I wish I can be better.

... unwritten thoughts, can't seem to put in words, period.

Can I?

I can't wait for my braces to be taken Oout...!!! Haha I know it's so random.. A brand new look which I have been yearning for ages. Weee~~

Plenty of thoughts have been running through my mind recently. Umm.. maybe not just recent but have always been thinking.. Especially after I'd met my tutor whom sometimes inspired me with his words.. On & off. What do I want to do after my graduation? Where do I want to progress to? I don't have a single clue to myself. But I will never stop thinking.. to make myself a better person.

"I say love, it is a flower & you it's only seed"



Remember when

Remember when I was thirteen years old I wished I can be sixteen..
When I reached sixteen years old I wished I can be eighteen..
& when I'm eighteen years old I wished I can be twenty-one..
& when I was twenty-one I wished I can be twenty-three..
This year.. turning twenty-five, I wished to stop growing..

A song to share~ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TTA2buWlNyM

Remember When - Alan Jackson
Remember when I was young and so were you
And time stood still and love was all we knew
You were the first, so was I
We made love and then you cried
Remember when


Remember when we vowed the vows and walked the walk
Gave our hearts, made the start, it was hard
We lived and learned, life threw curves
There was joy, there was hurt
Remember when

Remember when old ones died and new were born
And life was changed, disassembled, rearranged
We came together, fell apart
And broke each other's hearts
Remember when

Remember when the sound of little feet
Was the music we danced to week to week
Brought back the love, we found trust
Vowed we'd never give it up
Remember when

Remember when thirty seemed so old
Now lookin' back, it's just a steppin' stone
To where we are, where we've been
Said we'd do it all again
Remember when

Remember when we said when we turned gray
When the children grow up and move away
We won't be sad, we'll be glad
For all the life we've had
And we'll remember when

Remember when

Remember when

A new beginning

This new year has started for 31 days and lunar new year will be over in a few day's time. I want to say that my last christmas and my chinese new year were very well-spent with friends and family. :) I'd also received a very awesome xmas present from Mr Ron - the Samsung Note ^.^ I can take more pictures with him now.. cos I realised that our photos are just too little. Nice phone huh? :D

I'm looking forward to Valentine's Day.. bcos we'll be travelling to Batam over the weekend before and on that day itself, he says there'll be good food :p am wondering now if we should just do the cooking at home, I bet it'll be equally sweet and enjoying :)

I can still remember my new year resolution for last year, one of them was to be a nicer girlfriend to Mr Ron and treating him better. So this year resolution will continue on from last year, simply because he's just too nice and I can't bring myself to love him less. :)

If only you know

I haven't been working for the past few months and I'm glad I made the decision to take this short break out of my used-to-be very busy life. I learn to see things differently, I take things easy, I slower down my pace. I  feel the strained muscles in me have been let down, slowly. Finally, I don't have to worry that I might not hear it when the alarm bells rings off in the morning. I don't have to worry about my job the next day. Everything.. except, only my assignments.

I have been to different places observing the way people works, just wanna have an answer for the question in me, "who really feels happy during working? How?" Once, I sat in Mcdonalds, watching the staff preparing the drinks for his customer behind the counter McCafe, I can see he's happy, genuinely. I felt it.

It feels so great, when I only have to wake up when I want to, thinking of what to cook for the family later in the night, trying out new dishes that I had tried outside. Waiting for him to end work and watch tv or soccer together. If only you know how much I cherish the time I have now, doing absolutely nothing. I simply love it. :)

How long more?

It is the first time I see zw cried so much and it's only now then I realised how a person can get so helpless no matter how cheerful he used to be. There's nothing much I can do for him now except to spend more time with him so that he doesn't think negatively all the time.

He made my heart sinks when he says, "I just want to be a normal person again."
I really hope he'll recover well and soon.

Zw, I just want you to know, that none of us here wants you to give up so easily. I know it's never easy to do but you know, we are always here. You can do it!